1993

I guess we both have a hard time expressing ourselves sometimes.  There are so 
many things I wish I could tell you, but they seem too much or too strange.

You mean so much to me in so many different ways, it is so hard to try to 
explain to you.  I don't want to sound cliché, or mushy, but in some respects 
you mean more to me than anyone else.  I feel there are so many things we could 
do together that I don't think we could do alone.  Not just physical things, 
but mental things, spiritual things.

And now, some of my thoughts, I have been looking for many years, for someone 
to understand me, what's inside, what's outside, all of it.  With you I feel 
that I have a chance to be understood.  I feel as though whatever piece was has 
found its way home.  I don't want to get too bizarre, but you feel so right.  I 
can't say that we will be together forever, but I think we will always know 
each other.  It's just a feeling, but you have come into my life, and I don't 
think you will leave it.  I feel that I have so much to learn from you, so many 
ways that we can grow.  I want to discover, learn and change with you.  You are 
an incredibly special person, I don't know how, but you are.  I want to be near 
you.  Your light radiates, and I need light in my life.  I want t learn to 
give.  I need to get rid of all the darkness within me.  You give me hope.  For 
my life.  For this world.  For this existence.

I want you to know that I love you.  You mean so much to me.  I want to be with 
you.  I want you to be with me.

Gabriella

-- "nonesuch", written on the Brother typewriter, 1993